I slip, a virtuoso
too obscure to peg into a puzzle board
my bumbling body
converts skies, lands rainwater
it pools in statistics
disordered illness as shadow puppets
I was overlooked
symptoms to reframe my dis-ease
then there’s the neglect
of playacting, the lead role,
director, you weren’t that convincing
This found poem is very special to me. It was constructed from an essay by poet, essayist, and science writer Kate Horowitz. It’s called Performance of a Lifetime: On Invisible Illness, Gender, and Disbelief; and you can read it here.
She very generously allowed me to use her work for my erasure poetry project. We met on Instagram, and because we are both affected by a chronic health condition, I guess a sort of understanding grew very quickly. She’s also a brilliant poet and I highly recommend you read her work!